Lie?

I lie to myself,
I say—everything is gonna be all right.
I look up the sky,
I wonder when the stars will shine so bright.

I hide my inhibitions;
I pretend I’m strong with a fake smile.
I work so hard;
I am scared if that would ever be worthwhile.

I get slow sometimes,
Thinking where am I heading in life!
I take a break,
And I start afresh in a while.

I raise my guns again,
Determined I shall never give up the fight.
I tie my wounds,
And march ahead seeking for light.

I take step by step,
Waiting for my moment to strike.
Victory may be far,
But, I shall keep walking till I’m alive.

~KMnO4

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Aaj Dil

Aaj dil phir udaas hai
Khudse hi shayad naaraaz hai
Kuch jaana-pehchaana ehsaas hai
Kya pata isko kiski aas hai

Jaise sagar ko hi pyas hai
Ha ajeeb yeh kasmakash hai
Dard hi dard bas paas hai
Shayad dard hi iska ilaaz hai

*KMnO4*

Awake

I guess it’s wrong to keep dreaming;
I thought life was as said by John Lennon.
But there’s a hole in my dreams,
And I can’t say, how I want, to keep it on.
 
But this play has to stop;
I’ll keep faking till how long?
Life’s a sail not so smooth,
And every day, I can’t bleed, it just feels so wrong.
 
And this hole keeps growing;
I can’t fix, some things are out of control.
But it’s time to be awake.
I can’t live, in my dreams, anymore.
 
And I don’t know why it feels so good;
I’m dying; the ashes flying give me a smile.
And I don’t want to sleep today;
Shoo my dreams away, I’ve got to say, let me just stay awake awhile.
 
~KMnO4
 

Final Stint

The euphoria of the mental orgy has sublimed,
I can see things better now.
The captivating spell casted by the witch withered,
I still lay on my bed staring at the ceiling above.
I feel so energized today—
As if I can climb a peak.
I cringe on my bed as I lay;
I still feel so weak.
I see the darkness in the light today;
Instead, darkness now is kind of a soothing place.
I fear the light that can blind my way;
Sometime, you see things clearer in pitch darkness.
Am I awake or am I dreaming?
I don’t know real from fake.
As if I’m still possessed by the forbidden ring;
It’s time for me to wake.
The final stint I made is over today;
I feel so stupid and useless now!
Or is it just a phase?
Am I still so blind somehow?

~KMnO4

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A Sobriquet

Your soul shalt rot in hell,
And your body decayed on earth,
What’s the difference – I asked thyself,
They are two sides of a same coin – I heard,
No – they are two sides of a magnet – I thought,
But one was just a sobriquet for the other – the God said.
 
~Lucifer
 
 
PS- Lucifer is a contributing author to this blog.

Jack Sparrow

Don’t be sad,
I’ll be with you—
in good days and bad.
 
In happiness or sorrow—
you’ll be my sea,
and I’ll be your Captain Jack Sparrow.
 
And don’t be mad,
don’t be low.
I’ll be by your side
wherever you go.
 
Because when it’s dark
and nothing is in your sight.
I’ll be your star;
I’ll give you light.
 
And I’m nothing
without you.
You’re my sky,
and I’m your blue.
 
~KMnO4
 
 

Her Smile

Don’t go by her smile—
You’ve not seen the venom hidden underneath.
I could never understand it;
It’s like a puzzle that never can be solved—
Is it endearing innocence or dark cruelty?
 
~KMnO4

Polar Star

It’s been too late in night,
There are no fire flies.
Nothing to light up the dark:
Everything’s gone so quite.

A voice that guided me till now,
Seems to have faded somehow.
I don’t know what went wrong;
Or was it always an illusion?

I don’t want the sun to rise;
It cannot save my life.
I cannot face the light;
Can someone hear my cries?

I search my polar star,
The fight is not over,
I can wait forever,
So close, yet so far.

~KMnO4

Xopun

Ubhoti ghoroloi
Jau moi kenekoi
Bikhador bedona
Kou moi kenekoi
Nubuje kunuwe
Xopun herai jai
 
Aabori dhorise kaal-dhumuhai
Xunaali poja’u johi jai
Ovagi aai mur ringiyai
Kotenu herai…
 
Nilimaar Xopun loi
Erisilu xei poduli
Aai’r senehor maala
Deutaar Obhimaan-jori
Ajisun misa hol
Mathu dhulikona
Ajisun misa hol
Aai’r xokolu aakha
Ajisun misa hol
Jibonor poribhakha
Nubuje kunuwe
Nubuje kunuwe
Nubuje kunuwe
Xopun herai jai
 
Aabori dhorise kaal-dhumuhai
Xunaali poja’u johi jai
Ovagi aai mur ringiyai
Kotenu herai…
 
 
Asu moi usupi
Hiya mur thomoki roi
Endhar nikhai muk nisukai
Obujon soga bur joli jai
Dikhaheen moi bor nirupaai
Nisthur protipol oxohai
Nubuje kunuwe
Nubuje kunuwe
Nubuje kunuwe
Kio xopun herai jai
 
Aabori dhorise kaal-dhumuhai
Xunaali poja’u johi jai
Ovagi aai mur ringiyai
Kotenu mur xopun herai…
 
(The theme is about a failed son, who had left his home with dreams for his life but failed miserably. He’s now weeping and seeking redemption)
 
~KMnO4

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